Just a thought .

Hello there.....

I hope you've missed me cause I have :^)

Loads of things happened this month and honestly I'm in a stew, how July has swept into its last phase too.

This month itself, one of the days when I was lazing around a very small thing occupies my attention and I find myself wondering.

Does that happened to you? 

If not, I consider myself different ! &  If "yes" then 'Fist bump'.

Just a small thought, 'Two people in the same house, share a similar moment.Well before even your creative juices flow and perceive the unwanted i'd like to burst the imaginative bubbles of yours, its nothing of that sort.' 

Maybe it's a Wednesday, I barely remember, almost afternoon.

We had breakfast, had our ears to some excruciating news and we seem disappointed, not surprised though. 

The day goes by, my sister heads to her cosy spot - the bedroom, my mother walks up to the kitchen and I am seated in the living room trying to decide; how to spend the rest of the day. The next thing I do is glance through the books kept near me to have a read and I subconsciously select "How To Talk To Anyone" by 'Liel Lowndes'. I really have no clue why I chose that particularly maybe because of it's "not so appealing" but "appealing to me" coverpage - Yellow background, Bold letters.

And while I cast a look at the index content, my mother receives a call on her phone and proceeds to answer it and runs towards the kitchen.

5 minutes later my sister receives a call on her cell phone which is at that moment charging yet she approaches it excitedly and swiftly moves towards the bedroom.

We've all eavesdropped someone's conversation, so please stop judging me for that ! However I had no ulterior motives as such.These conversations were poles apart, like my mom was chatting with someone about daily chores and the hiked prices of stuffs, whereas my sister was talking to her husband and their conversation was extremely intriguing.

Honestly, it was way more satisfying and worth munching popcorns with than reading "How to talk to anyone".

These guilty pleasures I tell you :p 

Now here is a catch :

They may be talking to somebody and communicating with smiles on their faces and eyes sparkling with joy however what I hear, seated in the living room were mere words, feelings, emotions that were proclaimed and then there were pauses since the other person on the line is doing the same.

Even though they were talking to someone, it felt like they were conversing with themselves and that thought hit me. I gazed at the book in my hand and I felt that, 'We always in our lives yearn to speak to someone, seldom do we do it with ourselves'. 

We never talk to ourselves or maybe if we do, we do not understand its importance in our lives. 

Before lockdown, I myself was naive to the concept of Self-talk. I refrained being alone, and later today I am delighted for being able to vest more time with myself. 

Before this, I did talk to myself but never listened, Felt but never expressed, Hoped but never practiced.

I've heard people suggesting others to talk to their friends, relatives, their loved ones when they feel anxious, sad, unmotivated, worthless but, I don't get it; 

"We're all humans, right? 

We all have our own share of burdens, baggages to bear and with that I am definitely not denying the gravity of these suggestions, however I can't resist but over-exclaim the significance of self talk, to establish a beautiful relationship with our own selves. 

Until I ain't aware how I am feeling, how can anybody else?!

Really don't know how this works for others but for me, 'MY MENTAL PEACE IS MY PRIORITY' and I always try to make peace with myself, spending time listening to my worries, anxieties, difficulties and always approach them with understanding and believe that I'd be able to help myself to the fullest.

I've realised, that I always tried to 'Search For Validation' in others but now that I spend more time with myself I've known the fact that nobody except me could do that any better.

I'm really not sure, if I'm pitching Self-talk enough since I am still in the process of exploring the concept. However, I'd like to list some of my takeaways from this whole trial and error expedition.

•Self-talk has helped me be more empathetic towards myself and towards others.

•Self-talk has taught me to listen more often.

•Self-talk has helped me assert a value to my being.

•Self-talk has helped me Learn the Unlearnt things about myself.

•Self-talk has helped me to avoid being Quick to Judge instead be more Accepting of myself.

•Self-talk has helped me establish a beautiful selfless relationship with my own self.

And lastly, it has helped me enjoy my very company and be a part of myself, when everything felt apart.

All of this leads to only one thing, that 'We consciously need To spend more time with our own self, Battle our own demons and Help thrive ourselves at each step of our life.'

This whole write up if you consider, could be replaced with anything and everything for that matter like 'Praying' instead of 'Self-talk' or 'Yoga' or even 'Exercise' . Anything that has kept you going and that you've looked upto consistently each passing day. For me it's surely Self-talk. 

Perhaps, It would be very appropriate to say, "Our Outlook becomes our Outcome".

The moment we appraise our tendency to look down upon ourselves and navigate that perspective towards things that bring out the best in us determing our true potential, is when we would start living for ourselves.

With that, I'd take a moment, to Thank You for staying right uptil here and not scape off . 

It does mean the world to me ! 

And lastly, keep checking on yourself and be careful how you are talking to yourself because YOU ARE LISTENING !!

Until next time !!

Love,

Gloria Mathias